Self-inquiry with Matayo

At dawn on 5th February 2021 my beloved grandmother passed and instead of feeling heartbroken, I experienced a bliss whose existence I had long forgotten. It only lasted a day but it set me off on a path to realization. This path involved getting losing sight of my "want of wants" over and over again. In 2025 Grace brought me to my knees, into a perfect position to pray with true humility. Through (self-)forgiveness I released the blockages. As the stickiness of the me I thought I was began to cease, the flow of life I am started to transform into the fountain of Love it had always been beneath the surface blockages. Realization came with a profound laughter one afternoon, all kinds of transformations followed, fear and doubt were washed away, the I began to fade, the voice in my head diminished, then disappeared. The process is ongoing. Less and less of that once-me is left every day. It is a fading mirage. In the light of Grace, for Grace, thanks to Grace. Here to serve and be free.